I want Christmas right now. Not because I want presents but because I want to be in Oregon, I really wish I could be at Springfield high Schools Christmas concert. I miss Oregon so much around this time of year and get so home sick. Then you add the stress of a Christmas concert and everything else that went wrong today to the list and I am just a mess. Hopefully my concert will pull together in the next two rehearsals I have.
I haven't been taking pictures because my camera is pretty much shot and I am waiting to unwrap the one under my tree. I am hoping by the end of this week that all the stress and anxiety will go away and I can enjoy the holiday season to it's fullness. I love Christmas I love the feeling you get, the decorations, the giving, smiles, snow (only around Christmas). Right now though it is just so hard to get into it.
I shouldn't complain becuase some people have it so much worse then I do and I really am blessed. I just needed to get some of it out so that maybe I will feel a little better.
Jaden, Natalia, and I decorated the real tree right after Thanksgiving week. It is so pretty and I love my Noble Fir. I pay a pretty penny for it but I love the smell and the look. Tyson is so tolerant of my little quirks. He knows that a tree is really important to me so he has always found a way for me to get one. It makes me feel a little closer to home because our tree is always from Oregon. It's obviously a farm tree but at least it's real.
Natalia has been really good about not touching it. She did a couple of times, same with the sheep in the Nativity and quickly learned that she wasn't aloud to touch it. She also took the liberty of unwrapping one of her presents. It was in pink princess paper so obviously it was hers. I walked into a little girl with the biggest smile on her face, I wish I could have gotten a picture of it.
Jaden, with Jessicas help wrote Santa a letter and put it in his mail box. We have this massive mail box with a massive santa on it infront of our Museum. Jessica took pictures for me but they are on her camera so it might take a while to get them. He asked for alot of things and alot of them he won't be getting. Kids always want the most expensive stuff and being teachers, well that just isn't going to cut it for expensive. But, we got him some of the things he wanted that were good deals and I think he will be very happy with what he gets.
As for Natalia as long as it's dolls, or anything to do with a doll, blankets, and shoes she will be in heaven for hours. She hates having socks on but she loves having her shoes on.
In a week and a half I will be in Oregon and I can't wait. I really need to get away from here. I might even turn my phone off once we are done driving just get to get away from all of Idaho. I really need a break. I love my friends here and I love my famiy around here but I just need some time away to regroup myself (and not from my friends and family, just with my situation right now). Not that it's bad but anyone who knows me, knows that I like things to go perfect and if they aren't going perfect I get stressed and when I get stressed my blood pressure goes up and then I'm cranky and then I'm crying or something so I just need a break.
I hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday because I know I will. Hope to see lots of people in Oregon while I'm there.
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